This Is Not A Drill!

This is not easy. Actually - it's pretty damn hard. I have a million things to do and very little time and energy. I'm always tired and I HATE that. When I'm tired my brain feels foggy and I can't focus. I lose track of time and don't get important things done.

Yet - I have this fire inside me for a better life. I want more for myself and even more than that for my girls. Every day I look at my vision board and I just KNOW that I'll get things under control soon. I KNOW I have it in me! My biggest problem is that this is soo slow going. I want instant gratification. I want to be able to say that I've achieved these goals right now and I know it'll take at least a year. But - this is the year. My year. Every year I say that I'm going to make changes and every year I've fallen short - but not in 2009. This is it - the real deal.

My new incantation for 2009 is the words of one of my favorite comedians - Money Mike, "This is NOT a drill!! This shit is real!!"